Last week, before my double long weekend, I was doing well on the weight loss front. I was down 17 lbs in four weeks, which is a good start no matter how I look at it. I was eating consciously; feeling great. I did a little extra celebrating over that weekend with friends and family, but it seemed to not be a problem.
Then I found myself home, alone and bored (???) during my days off. Bad, bad news.
Lots of time on my hands and a sudden influx of cash and I found myself cele-feasting with friends, with my son, using low blood sugar as an excuse to eat where I know I shouldn’t.
Today is our anniversary. You would think the husband and I would be spending it together. But we didn’t. We went grocery shopping, had dinner with my mother. Then he went about his “list” of things to fill up his weekend and I went shopping with the Nana.
Shopping that included – after an especially heavy lunch – a trip to an ice cream parlor and dinner at of pizza (with appetizer).
I know when I step on that scale Monday morning I will have gained weight. I know this like I know my name.
I want to lose another 25 lbs by my birthday – a little over two months away. This is doable for me. But I have to work at it. I have to stay on track.
I have to remember how much better it feels when I do good things for myself instead of punishing myself.
I’m stopping the lapse this time. Stopping it now.
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Another Cate // May 24, 2009 at 2:24 am |
I get heartburn and swollen ankles just reading this. And I’m a little bummed you’re not doing something together for your anniversary. Generally, even if we do nothing, we kinda do it – together. Although, now that I’m thinking about it, he often goes off on long bike rides for our anniversary – by himself. Or takes his daughter to play golf. But then we spend a lot of time together (like almost all of it). So I guess whatever makes ‘em happy. How many years now?
And thank you, thank you, thank you for posting. I miss you when you don’t write.
Jim515 // May 25, 2009 at 9:27 am |
I think the most important thing you said is “I have to remember how much better it feels when I do good things for myself instead of punishing myself” – I said something very similar at my WW meeting yesterday.
(BTW – Weight Watchers will be closed on Monday)